I recently wrote a post very similar to what this one is going to be but I took it down as I was feeling a bit crap that day and it came across all a bit too emotional. I didn't want sympathy votes as I'm absolutely fine, but life is just testing me at the moment. I almost feel like I'm starting the next chapter in my life, and I'm aware that the lack of videos and unchatty blog posts was showing that.
2013 didn't start too well. I won't dwell on it, but it felt like one thing after another going wrong, and my patience was quickly running out. I started to find it hard to cross the border of being too personal on the internet and what I felt comfortable saying and not saying. So, I decided to just update you on what's happening right now as moving forward is much better than dwelling on January!
Valentines this year was the first time I'd properly spent it with anyone and it felt kind of special. As Rich is 5 years older than me (trust me, I feel like the older one most the time!), he wasn't quite as thrilled about Valentines like I was. However he did come home with a dozen red roses, my favourite chocolates, a cute card and took me for a lovely three course meal at Bella Italia. Lucky girly! I too spoilt him with gifts and it felt like Christmas all over again! I do think that Valentines is all a bit too commercialised, but I couldn't help but feel a tiny bit excited.
I think the biggest thing that happened to me this week was that I quit my job! Again, this is something I find hard to discuss as A) I don't like people knowing where I work, B) My boss, colleagues and friends read this and C) It's hard to explain exactly why I quit. But in summary, I was unhappy. My salary wasn't that brilliant and I now want to put the skills I've learnt from being a Manager in a shop into a more specific role. I'm good with customer service, IT, writing and media. I'd quite like something in Marketing, PR or Events, so I'm taking some time off to look for jobs and find something that I can start a new career in.
In the meanwhile, I've been working for my mum and The Beauty Closet. This week, I learnt all about Sage and I've been inputting the accounts for my business. I'm not going to lie, it was tough but I'm getting the hang of it now! I also ordered lots of new stock, replied to a ton of unanswered emails, wrapped and sent new orders and basically my business got my full attention again. This little Woodland Rabbit Light is a new addition to the website and glows beautifully on my desk. It reminded me of childhood and secretly makes me smile.
You might have also noticed that I managed to get two new videos up! My brother lent me his Canon 60D so the quality improved and I spent ages editing my recent 'Get Ready With Me' video too. I'm hoping that as I'm free for a moment, I can continue with the videos and posts.
I also recently found out I have eczema caused by stress, so I've been trying to manage that. My scalp requires a special shampoo, my lips are completely cracked and hurt all day and my skin constantly needs moisture. However, I'm hoping that this time off will do my health a whole lot of good. I even went swimming on wednesday which was so relaxing for my muscles (and my brain!).
Finally, I'm going to leave you with this quote as it's my absolute favourite and one that I referred to when I was feeling down recently. My lovely friend Hannah sent it to me a long time ago, and it's been stuck on my wall ever since. It reminds me that life is very simple, there aren't really any rules and if we're unhappy, we have to change it.
I'm spending my Saturday organising a few bits and bobs before going out to town with all my friends tonight. Definitely treating myself to a strawberry mojito! ;)
Lots of love,